Save me from myself.
It sounds strange, doesn't it?
How could you be in danger from your VERY OWN SELF?
I ask myself this a lot, especially when people hear about eating disorders and don't understand that you DO NOT have control over your behaviors to some degree.
Sure, we all make choices.
But if you asked someone without an eating disorder to not eat for a long period of time, or throw up the food in their stomach, they will probably decline the offer.
Nothing bugs me more than when people say "you're so skinny and beautiful, you shouldn't have an eating disorder"
Um well no shit I didn't really ask for one.
ITS NOT ALWAYS ABOUT THE FOOD OR OUR BODIES.
I don't just have an eating disorder because I think I'm fat.
I have anxiety.
I have stress.
I feel worthlessness.
I have self doubt.
I don't have confidence in myself.
I feel inadequate.
So before you go and tell someone with an eating disorder they are being crazy or stupid for doing this because they aren't fat, take in to consideration weight is definitely not the only factor in an eating disorder.
Things trigger people to do certain things.
For example, some of my triggers are large social gatherings or the gym.
The smallest thing could set anyone off to participate in an unhealthy behavior.
This is why identifying triggers can help you learn how to handle them.
Especially with anxiety and stress.
I have been practicing this because I have been triggered by so many things lately, that I had no idea I was even bothered by.
I'm still plugging along. Struggling. But still trying.
Thanks for reading all. :)
